- Current Location:my house
- Current Mood: cold
- Current Music:nothing
I really hope this is confusing, because thats the way my brain feels all the time...
- Current Location:computer room
- Current Mood:Hopeless
- Current Music:silence
The perfect person, perfect situation, and perfect job are all lies created by a gigantic false sense of security. One can not expect that perfection would last unless one is naive about said perfection. A human being is only as perfect as they can be for so long especially in a sensitive situation. There is absolutely no way for perfection to happen in terms of human interaction, and half of perfection as perceived by the human eye is a pleasant illusion constructed by false security or pleasure.
These are just my thoughts and observations on the subject of perfection.
If I felt anything less I don't think I'd feel normal
Maybe tomorrow I can think clearly again
I feel as though my sanity is slipping through my fingertips
I have no thoughts left in my head to keep me occupied
I feel like a black hole of consciousness
My memory lacks any sort of structure, and all is falling apart around me
I am going insane
What the hell do i do about this?
- Current Location:House
- Current Music:Nothing
The way one sees their life is in ones eyes and brain, and forever shall remain so because of this fact. Anyone that can read this post has a working brain and should consider them selves lucky. When one goes through life using only the power of the part of your brain that questions you start to question EVERYTHING even your subconscious questions EVERYTHING. There is no escaping it... it's a reflex. One doesn't control a reflex initially, but one can learn to control any part of your body by using your brain given that there isn't a permanent physical disability of the brain or body.
Chemical problems with the brain and body can mostly be controlled by the human brain almost entirely; however there needs to be an actual will to make said change. You control your life and the chemicals in your body with the brain by processing information and making a decision given the data your brain takes in. Sometimes a person does not even realize what's going on because it happens all the time. It's hard to control unless there is a conscious effort to do so. Yes that point will be made several more times, because it is something that needs to be re told. No one person is capable of making change unless they understand how to do so.
Some people seem incapable of conscious change or control. Shallow control is something almost any one can do: Quitting smoking, fixing an obvious personality flaw that causes emotional pain, and even anger outbursts can be "fixed" or "changed." Any way you put it it's possible, and sometimes people need to take time to them selves to do so.
To sum up all of this into one lump that's possibly easier to grasp. Irrational decisions are not excusable, because everyone with a conscious working brain can choose what decisions are actually necessary. If one gives up on most things in life, because they can not process something and make an intelligent, rational decision.... maybe they should try thinking instead of acting on impulse.
Tonight's plans.... Chill, Shower for work before I go to bed so I don't have to worry about doing it before work, coffee with Chera, come home and play guitar, then sleep.
I shall update again either tomorrow or tonight. Peace bitches.
I think I need to stop being so hung up on the fine details of what makes life or what lifes purpose is and just start living and having fun.
- Current Location:My house
- Current Music:Goldfinger - Spokesman